About this website and the webmaster:
Greetings to you! My name is Kevin Williams and I am the owner and webmaster of this website. Over the years, an increase in the public interest in near-death experiences (NDEs) has helped make this website the number one ranked website on the subject. It is my goal is to transform this website into the "Grand Central Station of Near-Death Experiences." My mission is to help connect people with information and resources about NDEs and NDE research for the purpose of understanding death and thereby understanding life in a way that brings tremendous joy and love.
Like many people, I first learned about the near-death experience in the 70's when I read the excellent ground-breaking book by Dr. Raymond Moody called Life After Life. Since then, I have read everything I can get my hands on concerning the subject. Reading the beautiful accounts of love and heaven by near-death experiencers created within me a deep love for near-death experiences. It has also made me a much more spiritual person. Reading enough of these experiences can make a person feel as if they are relearning knowledge that they had forgotten long ago. My deep love for the profound insights that can be found within near-death accounts has made me committed to bring these insights to the Internet. I believe my mission in life is to bring these special insights from others to the Internet for all to freely receive. Somehow, I believe I have known this to be my mission since childhood. I strongly believe that the insights from near-death accounts are universal and that they speak to the heart of everyone. They are truths that are already known to all of us at the deepest core of our being.
On this page, I am going to describe how I transformed from a wild child of the 60s who believed in "all you need is love" to a simple follower of Jesus, then to a strict fundamentalist of systematic theological dogma. Then I will describe how my dogmatic system of faith was devastated upon discovering a historical paradox found in Christianity. Then I will describe how NDE research and the lost teachings of Jesus transformed me away from dogmatic literalism and back into the simple faith. Then how I discovered that the "resurrection" of the body is actually a spiritual regeneration of being "born again" and how the real "resurrection" is of the spirit into another body for reincarnation. Then I will explain how my understanding of near-death experiences and early Christian history transformed my away from religion and toward spirituality. This resulted in my development of what I call "the Gospel of Jesus According to Kevin" and my understanding of the scientific, metaphysical, and religious foundation for a gospel of unconditional love and how practicing love for one another is the way to heaven on Earth and heaven within. This led to my abandonment of traditional religion for a universal spirituality. Coming full circle now, I am back to being the child of the 60s who believes in "all you need is love." Now my desire is to promote NDE research and the spirituality I found within it. My hope is that others will find the joy and love that I have in knowing that death is but a brief transition - a door - which we cross over to get to our real life and real home in heaven. And all you really need to get there is love.
How I converted from a life as a party animal to a follower of Jesus
In 1977, after reading the Gospel of John, I had a "born again" experience which can only be described as a paranormal event of instant spiritual resurrection. I was instantly converted into a different person and was never the same person since. I went from being a wild, dope-smoking, hell-raising, alcoholic college student to a transformed fundamentalist Christian. Soon afterward, I participated in follow-up evangelism with the Billy Graham crusade and the Josh McDowell ministry. I led a significant number of people to Christ and gave speeches at colleges on Christian topics including Bible prophecy and early Christian history. I was a religious zealot whose Biblical knowledge and "savior complex" drove me on a crusade to tell those who I perceived were deceived, hell-bound, and lost sinners and who lacked the righteousness I believed I had and who needed the intellectual formula which I possessed that would save their souls. Pretty arrogant huh? Later, I learned there is a fine line between ignorance and arrogance. But at this point in my life the line was blurred.
However, this mindset of mine of religious arrogance began to change when I began to read about near-death experiences. The spirituality I found in near-death experiences was on a scale far grander than anything I could find in religion. My narrow religious mindset ultimately began to crack as the light of universal love, universal salvation, and a universal God entered in. This ultimately led me to abandon my rigid systematic intellectual religious theology.
How I transformed from the simple faith into a strict fundamentalist of systematic theological dogma
Before I learned about near-death experiences, I believed salvation was a process similar to Jesus picking up a dead dog and carrying it to heaven. I believed God the Father chose some people from eternity, the Son redeemed them, and the Spirit gives them faith which makes their redemption and salvation is complete. Jesus carrying a dead dog to heaven. Then God saves the elected chosen people by making them able and willing to obey the gospel. This system holds that the entire process (election, redemption, regeneration) is the work of God and is by grace alone. This theology holds that people do not go to hell because they rejected Jesus - nor do they go to hell because they did not choose Jesus. The reason this is true, according to the dogma, is because nobody has the ability on their own to choose Jesus. So this means people go to hell not because of anything they did, but because God did not choose them in the first place for salvation. They were never elected by God before the world began, never redeemed by Jesus at the cross, and never called by the Spirit. This harsh theology I used to believe in meant that only a chosen few were created for heaven. And according to Paul, God created the rest of humanity for the sole purpose of burning and torturing them forever in hell. Nice God huh? I used to rationalize this by saying that God can do whatever he wants with his children. It didn't help much.
This harsh theology I just described is the system of salvation which originated as a protest to Catholicism and became known as the "Protestant" faith. It was a rediscovery of the theology of Paul and Augustine, which was salvation based solely on election and not on any works of human beings. Catholicism and early Christianity, however, was emphasized salvation through the performing of good works. On the other hand, Paul taught a salvation which required merely an act of lip-service - of saying "Jesus is Lord" and believing it. Pauline Christianity teaches that people are saved by merely pledging allegiance to Jesus. Even the ability to believe in Jesus comes from God and not from us - otherwise it would be an obligation and a good work.
So the Protestant faith originated from Paul's theology of salvation as being solely an act of God - by grace and not by works - like Jesus carrying a dead dog to heaven. Unfortunately (or fortunately, however you look at it), there is a giant fly in the ointment of this system of faith. One might ask, "What happens then to the Buddhist twelve-year old who was never given an opportunity to hear about Jesus but died a good boy? What is his fate?" According to Pauline Christianity, the boy's fate is the equivalent of Jesus picking him up over his head and casting him headlong into the eternal flames to be tortured forever. Paul even goes so far as to say that the very reason God created this boy was to cast him into hell to "make his power known." But this ultimately led to a historical paradox within Christian theology which ultimately caused me to reject this theology entirely.
How my dogmatic system of faith was devastated upon discovering a historical paradox found in Christianity
The paradox: If Jesus redeemed all of mankind at the cross, then why isn't all of mankind redeemed and going to heaven?
Protestants turned to Paul to resolve this paradox. They embraced Paul's doctrine of election which holds that Jesus did not die for all mankind nor did he intend to save all mankind. It holds that he came only to die for his chosen few - his sheep - and not the goats. This is only logical because it implies that if Jesus' death were really meant to save all of mankind, then there is no doubt that all of mankind would certainly be saved and no one would be going to hell. So the Christian must choose between two choices:
(1) Jesus died for all humanity. Therefore, Jesus died for no one in particular because no one was actually saved at the time of Jesus' death on the cross. Jesus' death only made our salvation a possibility and conditional upon a future time when we decide whether or not to accept his sacrificial death. Once we accept Jesus' work of salvation, then the possibility of salvation becomes a reality of salvation.
(2) Or, Jesus died only for a chosen few and his death actually secured their salvation at the time of his death on the cross. The final act of the elect's salvation comes when the Holy Spirit calls those elect people who were predestined for salvation and gives them the gift of faith.So the Christian must choose which limitation to believe (1) or (2). Either Jesus' work at the cross was limited in its power in that it didn't actually save anyone at the cross or it was limited in its scope in that it was intended for the chosen few only. There is no middle ground here either. You must chose which limitation to believe. Paul believed this idea of "limited redemption" was not dishonoring to God for the simple reason that God was under no obligation to save anyone at all. Paul states that God "has mercy on whom he has mercy, and whoever he hardens he hardens." The Biblical basis for this "limited redemption" theology is found in the following:
No one is able to seek God (01). Everyone is born spiritually dead (02). No one has free will because everyone is born in slavery to evil (03). No one is able to choose spiritual things (04). No one is able to choose God (05). No one is able to believe in God (06). Nobody is able to choose Jesus (07). No one wills to be saved without God's help (08). No one is saved because of their ability to believe in Christ; people believe in Christ because God chosen them, Jesus redeemed them at the cross, and the Spirit gave them faith (09). God gives faith only to those chosen by God to receive it (10). Jesus saves only those he chooses to save (11). Jesus died only for chosen and not for the lost (12). Those who are not chosen are left alone in sin to go to hell (13). Jesus redeemed only the chosen at the cross and not all of humanity (14). Jesus did not make salvation a mere possibility for those chosen, he made it a reality at the cross (15). Jesus redeemed only those who were chosen to believe (16). Jesus redeemed "all men" and the "whole world" in the sense that God did not chose only Jews to be chosen people for redemption, but he chose people from every tribe and language and race and nation (17). So Jesus' purpose at the cross was limited in that it actually saved the chosen few (18). God was not under any obligation to save the rest of mankind.
So this harsh system of salvation holds that for a person to be saved, the person must have first been chosen by God before the world began, then Jesus' actually redeemed that person at the cross, then the Holy Spirit calls the chosen sinner to faith to attain a spiritual resurrection (19). There is no room at all in this system for behavioral requirements toward salvation (20). This system can be compared to Jesus walking through a cemetery and selected only a few to rise while leaving the others alone to perish in hell. Paul wrote how faith can only originate from God and not spiritually dead people. The implications of this system is that the act of confessing " Jesus is Lord" is merely an indication the person has been saved - not the reason the person is saved (21)
If a person believes in Jesus, it is merely an indication that the person has been chosen, redeemed, called, regenerated, justified, and sanctified. This means the whole process of salvation is completely out of the hands of human beings. It is a system of God's grace - not human works. Faith is a gift give only to those God has chosen. It is not given based upon what a person does or says. It is based solely upon God's mercy and grace to save whomever he wants to save and leave whomever he wants to perish to do so in hell. But there is devastating problem with this logic. It flat out contradicts everything Jesus taught in the gospels about there being behavioral requirements which we are expected to perform in order to attain eternal life and perfection (22).How NDE research and the lost teachings of Jesus transformed me away from dogmatic literalism and back into the simple faith
If one does an honest study of early Christian history and beliefs, they will realize that over the thousands of years since Christ's death, Christianity became vulgarized to become a system of salvation through a mere pledge of allegiance to Jesus and a personality cult of Jesus worship. Basically, Christianity today is original Christianity with the Judaism of Jesus taken out of it and added the Greek influences of Paul. It means not having to bear your own cross towards at-one-ment but simply relying on Jesus to carry your cross for you. Jesus constantly stressed behavioral requirements leading to salvation by taking up our own cross and following him in self-sacrifice and unconditional love. Paul had the opinion that our good works are, in his own words, used menstrual rags before God and not important for salvation. This is a contradiction of what Jesus taught in the gospels. Jesus always emphasized the importance of performing good works toward at-one-ment and liberation from the cycle of death.
When I began reading about NDEs, it was the beginning of my realization of how bizarre Christian doctrines were compared to the simplicity of the universal salvation found in NDEs and the lost teachings of Jesus. As time went on, I eventually had to deal with contradictions between the NDE concepts that I strongly believed to be true and Christian doctrines which I held deeply for so many years. These contradictions ultimately created conflicts in my mind and caused me a lot of mental anguish over the years. Eventually, I discovered that the more NDE concepts I learned and the more I learn about early Christian history, the more I found compatibility with NDE concepts and the teachings of Jesus. If one takes the time to research early Christianity, they will find it compatible with the universal salvation revealed in NDEs. The major key to the puzzle is the lost Christian doctrine of reincarnation and resurrection.
An in-depth study of early Christian history, Christian doctrine, the Dead Sea Scrolls, the early Christian writings discovered in Nag Hammadi, Egypt, and other scholarly research studies such as the Jesus Seminar, shows why these recent discoveries of early Christian and Jewish writings caused so much of a controversy and cover-up. These early writings show early Christianity and Judaism as it existed around the time of Jesus were closer in identity than scholars had ever thought. Modern Christianity is more apt to be called "Pauline Christianity" because it is based around the teachings of Paul rather than Jesus.
After Christ's death, there were many Christian sects that formed and they were practically indistinguishable from Judaism in those days. The early Christians considered themselves Jews and they followed the law and went to synagogue. But after Paul's conversion and rejection of the law and his Judaism, and his beginning his mission to take his vision of Christ to the Gentiles, a divide began to form within the body of believers. It centered around the law. Paul rejected it. The Jerusalem apostles did not. It also centered around Jesus' resurrection. Was it a spiritual resurrection or a physical one? As time went on, these doctrinal differences between various sects of the Christian faith grew. Then eventually, the organized Church in Rome gained enormous political power and decided to kill heretics and burn their writings to establish one orthodox Church based on Pauline Christianity. The lost teachings of Jesus became lost and never to be seen until 1945 when they were discovered in Egypt. Two years later, the Dead Sea Scrolls were discovered. The truth of early Christian and early Rabbinical Judaism is now known.
The Pharisees, the Essenes, the Gnostics, and the early Christians were believers in reincarnation (the true bodily "resurrection") and believers in spiritual renewal (the true spiritual "resurrection"). These were the "hidden mysteries" and the higher "secret" teachings which Jesus shared only with a few. The public at large in Jesus' day could not understand the difference between the resurrection of the spirit (reincarnation) and the resurrection of the body (being "born of the Spirit"). This is apparent in Jesus' conversation with Nicodemus.
How I discovered the "resurrection" of the body to be spiritual regeneration and how the "resurrection" of the spirit is reincarnation
It is appears to me that Jesus meant for this mystery to be hidden until the last days when he would return to the world. These 1945 and 1947 discoveries of the Dead Sea early Christian writings occurred shortly before Israel became a nation again in 1948. Now, it is possible for all the unfulfilled Bible prophecies about a conquering Messiah arriving to rule on the throne of David can be fulfilled. NDE visions of the future also show that we are living at a time before there will be major global changes. Not the end of the world. Just the end of the old order.
So the Christianity of Jesus and the Jerusalem apostles was centered around the rebirth of the spirit and the rebirth of the body. But in rejecting Judaism, Paul removed Judaism out of Christianity and, as a Hellenized Jew, he added the Persian concept of resurrection as a time when corpses would crawl out of graves on Judgment Day (the modern Christian idea of resurrection). As Paul's letters became more influential (which, by the way, I doubt Paul really wanted his personal letters to be elevated to the stature of "God's Word"), the end result was the vulgarization of original Christianity for the ignorant public and the defeat of Jerusalem Christianity. Rome conquered Jerusalem in 70 AD. Many around Jerusalem fled to Egypt where Jewish-Christianity and Gnostic Christianity could continue to practice the mystical teachings of Jesus concerning attaining at-one-ment with God.
So this is how Christianity came to be what it is today - a multitude of differing sects generally based around the magnification of a particular religious doctrine (baptism, tongues, soul sleep, election, etc..). But by studying the historical records and allowing NDE concepts to guide me, I reached the same conclusion many others are - that original Christianity taught by Jesus resembles Tibetan Buddhism more than Christianity of Jerry Falwell and the Catholicism of Madonna. Basically, Tibetan Buddhism and the early Christian writings emphasize "liberation" from the cycle of reincarnation through a "spiritual awakening" (rebirth of heart, mind, spirit) through knowledge of these higher principles which the public in general during Jesus' days never knew. A spiritual awakening is necessary to be able to practice a life of being liberated from the desires of the flesh and this world. Reincarnation is the vehicle which allows people to have as many opportunities as necessary to become become enlightened and be liberated. Hell is having to continue to reincarnate and be subjected to death over and over again without having eternal life. Eternal life means never having to die anymore. What is fascinating to me is these hidden mysteries of Jesus were not limited to Jesus or to Judeo-Christianity. These mystical teachings of attaining a human-divine unity can be found in Buddhism (Tibetan), Islam (Sufi), Judaism (Kabbalah), Hinduism (too many to list), and Christianity (Gnosticism). They all basically teach the same thing: the liberation of the flesh (from reincarnation) through the awakening of the spirit within (the true resurrection). Everyone who becomes an "awakened" one can say this.
Paul's rejection of behavioral requirements and the rejection of observing the law (and good works) and his teaching a "salvation" by pledging allegiance to Jesus horrified the Jerusalem Church who knew Jesus far better than Paul did. The Jerusalem twelve knew Jesus didn't destroy the observance of God's law. Their teachings were from Jesus directly and were based on good works and liberation. But Paul, in his zeal to make Christianity palatable to Gentiles, removed the heart of Christ's teachings which is the behavioral requirements (doing good works and love) toward perfection to become liberated from the cycle of birth and death.
How my understanding of near-death experiences and early Christian history transformed my religion into spirituality
Love is our God and loving everyone is the way to eternal life.
That's it! That is the entire gospel of Jesus in a nutshell! It means allowing the love from the kingdom of heaven within you to flow to everyone around you. Then you will have heaven within you and heaven outside you. Eternal life is about living forever in love with everyone and never having to die again.
The gospel of Jesus is about love: For God so loved the world that he gave us his beloved son that whoever "believes in him" will have eternal life and never die anymore. But what does "believes in him" mean? Does it mean those who believe he is the Messiah? Or believe he is Lord? Or believe he is God? Or believe he is Savior? Or believe everything in the Bible about him? Or believe his work on the cross? Or believe his teachings?
A full study of the gospels will show the answer to all these is "no." In the gospels, Jesus taught that mere mental or verbal allegiance or lip service to him does not get you into the eternal kingdom. "Believing in him" is not about thoughts or faith or words alone. It is about living in accordance with the behavioral requirements of practicing, inhabiting, and embodying the unconditional love taught by Jesus and other great teachers. This can be proven further down in the John 3:16 text to John 3:19-21 where Jesus refers to those who come into the light and live by the truth of that light as opposed to those who fear going into the light because of their fear of judgment. It is about coming into the light now and not waiting until death. It means putting aside your fear of judgment living in eternity right now in the light of unconditional love. This is the same message brought back from people in NDEs.
So believing and knowing love is not enough. Love must be lived, practiced, experienced, embodied, until "I AM." This is a very high standard for us. This is why we are here in this World-School. We are growing to heaven right here on Earth. And we are not here just to attain heaven, but also to bring it into this world from heaven. Unfortunately, this may take many lifetimes of soul and bodily evolution to achieve. I personally don't expect we will achieve until we have evolved enough to walk on water, raise the dead, and heal the sick. Fortunately, we are getting closer to this goal.
The following is my understanding of the scientific, metaphysical, and religious foundation for this gospel of love
The following is my understanding of reality based on the higher knowledge from NDEs and applying them toward understanding science, religion, metaphysics, philosophy, etc..
How we began: In the beginning, there was nothing but one, universal, collective consciousness that people refer to as "Spirit" or "God." Within this one Collective Consciousness are infinite points of consciousness. All things that ever existed in the past, and all things existing now in the present, and all things which will ever exist in the future, currently exists in an eternal spirit form as one of these infinite points of consciousness within the Collective Consciousness. Our spirit is a fractal of God. This means our spirit is both a part of the Whole and the Whole itself. Like a drop of sea water, we are both a part of the sea and the sea itself.
The origin of species and dawn of mankind: Then, at some moment outside of time, came the desire for individuality and self-expression. This led to the creation of the cosmos and souls. The vehicle for our spirit is our soul. In the same way, the vehicle for our soul is our physical body. Our spirit is the eternal part of God. Our soul is a temporary vehicle for our spirit to experience individuality of existence between the physical realm and the spirit realm. The human body evolved from ape-men millions of years ago and it will continues to evolve until it is able do those things which fully evolved people from our past, such as Jesus and Buddha, have achieved. At some point millions of years ago, souls descended upon these ape-men and began influencing to come down out of the trees and eventually form societies. Then souls began inhabiting the bodies of these ape-men. Thus, the dawn of humanity arose on this planet.
Human were created in the image of God: We humans are three-dimensional: body, soul, spirit. The divine nature can best be described as a manifestation: life, light, love. The Bible mentions a trinity of personalities: Father, Son, Holy Spirit. The Bible also mentions a trinity of human-divine unity: Body of Christ, Mind of Christ, Spirit of Christ. Science and metaphysics describe human awareness in terms of: consciousness (mind), subconsciousness (soul), and the collective unconsciousness or superconsciousness (spirit).
What happens when we die: After death, our soul body leaves our physical body. The physical body decays and is lost forever. As a soul, we can then experience in various soul realms as we did every night on earth in our dreams. While in the soul realms, our soul body is the vehicle for our spirit. Our soul mind functions as our conscious awareness and our spirit mind plays the role of the subconscious mind. Ultimately, we will want to leave the soul realms and enter into the higher spirit realms. When that choice is made and the soul actually enters into the light, the soul merges fully with the light and soul body is shed much like the physical body was shed at death. The memories of the soul remain forever in the mind and the individual is now once again a pure spirit in the spirit realms. As a pure spirit, we exist once again in pure thought form in the mind of the one enormous and fantastic dream called "God."
Humanity is evolving in mind, body, and soul: We have been evolving on a biological level for millions of years. At the same time, we have been evolving at the soul level through the cycle of birth, death and rebirth. To become liberated from this cycle of physical and soul evolution and reincarnation, one must first have a spiritual awakening. This awakening occurs when one's spirit is brought into conscious awareness. In Christianity, this liberation is called spiritual resurrection, or spiritual rebirth or being born again. In Buddhism, this liberation is called Nirvana. In Hinduism, it is called Moksha. In Gnosticism, this liberation occurs through attaining gnosis. All these concepts describe the same thing. It is the liberation of the spirit from the flesh. It is also the symbolism behind the crucifixion of Jesus.
Practicing love for one another is the way to heaven on Earth and heaven within: Jesus taught people the way to attain liberation is through the practice of unconditional love. Practicing unconditional love leads to the manifestation of the spirit within us and in our lives and brings our spirit into conscious awareness. It is an awakening of unconditional love within us and is the manifestation of our holy spirit within us. But it isn't enough to merely believe in love. Nor is it enough to just know about love. To be spiritual beings living in a physical world, we must live love, manifest love, and become the embodiment of love. We don't get there by focusing only on the love and sacrifice of Christ nor through worshipping him.
The Christian life involves taking up our own cross and following in Jesus' footsteps by practicing unconditional love: We can practice unconditional love by crucifying our self-centeredness through self-sacrifice and self-denial for the sake of serving others. "Crucifying the flesh" also means to put to death the desires of the lower self - the animalistic desires - to allow our higher self, our spirit, to come through.
The "beast" we are evolving away from: This lower nature in humanity is the unevolved animal nature within humanity which humans have been slowly shedding for millions of years through evolution and reincarnation. The nature of this unevolved beast within humanity is manifested as self-gratification, self-indulgence, self-centeredness, selfishness, self-importance, self-righteousness, self-delusion, self-condemnation, and the constant clamoring for self - ego (symbolically known as the "false god," the "devil," the "beast," "666"). [Note: The numerology for unevolved man is the number 6; the numerology for the unevolved man in God's image is the number 666; numerology for perfection is the number 7; the numerology for evolved man in God's image is the number 777]
Discovering a higher reality and the supremacy of love: It is the illusion of believing we are separate from one another when in fact we are all part of a Whole, is the source of many of the problems humanity has faced. This unending desire for self apart from the Whole is what we as humans need to overcome to become spiritual beings having a highly-evolved human experience. Everything on the physical and soul level is slowly evolving toward perfect unity with the Whole. Here in the physical realm, we are "enrolled" in a "World-School" for a class called Introduction to Eternal Life 101 to learn how to live with and love the people around us forever. NDE research reveals an open secret about our lives on Earth. Life is a test. It is an examination for which we will be graded on after death. There is no judgment except self-judgment and one shouldn't even do that. There is no condemnation but self-condemnation and we shouldn't do this either. The life review after death is for our educational benefit, enlightenment, and soul evolution. It is through experiencing a life review after death that we discover what we have been filling the void within us with. The more we fill our void with love for others, the more we have evolved as soul. It is this love within our void which draws us into the light.
But not everyone enters the light immediately after death. There are many reasons for this which can be found all over this website. Basically, we need more human experiences until our spiritual nature is brought into our consciousness awareness. But, in the end, nobody is lost and there is no eternal damnation. Nobody completely "flunks out" of God's University of Higher Knowledge. God's love is "tough love" as well as unconditional not wanting anyone to be lost but to attain at the physical level what we are at the spirit level.
So life is about loving everyone and everything in the light unconditionally and forever as individuals and collectively as the Whole that God wants us to be.
How I abandoned a traditional religion for a universal spirituality
Ultimately, I reached a point in my NDE studies where the hundreds of first-hand eyewitness NDE testimonies of Jesus I read became far more sensible and trustworthy to me than the four testimonies of Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John in the Bible. These gospel testimonies are not first-hand testimonies as NDE testimonies are and there are contradictions in the gospel narratives.
NDE research dramatically changed my ideas of just about everything on a massive scale. I learned God is immensely more loving, infinitely more forgiving than I once knew. I knew God would never abandon anyone forever in hell. The "God of wrath" I once thought existed I now know to be a man-made construct for which to project our fear and own personal weaknesses on. The Devil that I used to blame my sins on and fear all the time evaporated when I discovered that the greatest enemy I will ever have to face and conquer is self. I began to appreciate the vastness of God's love for all people no matter what their religious or cultural persuasion may be. My narrow religious system cracked and fell away as it became more and more ridiculous to me. Worse still, I discovered my former belief system to be highly dishonoring to God in that it portrays him as throwing the majority of humanity in hell fire to roast and be tortured forever. My former idea of God resembled Charles Manson more than it did of a God of infinite love and I regretted ever having ever believed it. And I grew to resent the ignorance within the Church and sympathized with those still trapped by false doctrines. I knew God cannot be limited to any book and realized the universe itself is a greater revelation of God than a zillion Bibles. I realized that we can have a direct experiences with God and not rely only on 2000 year-old experiences. I realized the serious biblio-idolatry which goes on when a person elevates a book to the status where people believe it was actually written by God and was infallible.
By studying NDEs, I found peace of mind and freedom from rigid beliefs systems and a far greater love for people and Jesus than I would ever have found in the Bible. I discovered truth was everywhere including in other religions. I began to view Christian doctrines in a more spiritual way rather than the inferior literal way. I learned how NDE insights offered greater spiritual lessons in love which can transform the world into the paradise it was meant to be.
Although I see a lot of nonsense in every religion I know the main thing is loving others and God. I know many people such as myself needed to begin with a narrow religion in order to graduate to "Spirituality 101" and learn that the only perfect "religion" is love. Because I would be comfortable in considering myself a Buddhist as I would a Christian, or a Hindu as I would a Gnostic, it makes it very difficult when someone asks me what my religion is. I used to answer "a Christian" but what kind of Christian believes in reincarnation, pre-existence, the divine nature within humanity, universal salvation, and no Devil? Then I used to answer, "Well, I am Christian, a Jew, a Hindu, a Muslim, a Buddhist" but found out this answer doesn't make a lot of sense to people. Then I would say, "NDEs are my religion." But once you discover spirituality, you don't need to be hung up over religious dogma anymore. Just follow the simple principle established by Jesus, John, and Paul when they said, "All you need is love."
Now my desire is to promote near-death research and the spirituality I found within it
My love for NDEs and the spirituality I found in them, combined with computer science background, led me to create this website and write a book entitled Nothing Better Than Death. This website is a wonderful labor of love for me and the zealotry I once reserved for religion is now direct toward my passion for bringing the spirituality of the NDE to the internet via my website. It is not my purpose to promote any one religion or even religion at all, however there are aspects to NDEs which have profound religious implications. My greatest desire is to promote the supremacy of unconditional love found in NDEs because I believe it is the key for humanity's next stage in human evolution. I believe NDEs will soon prove the survival of consciousness after death without any doubt and this will bring greater love and unity to the world. Imagine a world where everyone knows they will be held accountable after death for their misdeeds on Earth. NDE insights equate death as a process of "stepping into" the heaven or hell we have created within ourselves during life. The afterlife is a spectrum of existence where the highest heaven is pure unconditional love and the lowest hell is the absence of love. At death we awaken to the spiritual environment we have been creating within ourselves and actually inhabiting all our lives. So death itself is just a body problem. That's all.
It is my prayer that this website and the information on it will enlighten you and help you on your spiritual journey in unconditional love. The light of love is being poured upon all the world now because of the many people returning from death and their sharing the light with a world living in darkness and starving for light. I believe this tremendous influx of light coming in from NDEs will ultimately deliver the world from the current chaos we are and bring us to a new level of understanding of death and life. It will be the spiritual revolution and brotherhood of man foretold by a multitude of religions, NDEs, and psychic revelations. It will be paradise realized on earth.
On November of 2003, my family received a series of after-death communications involving my mother after her death. It was a remarkable experience and it proved conclusively that life does go on after death. It has been over two years since her death and we have been receiving indications of her continued existence from the Other Side off and on ever since.
"Love unconditionally as much as you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, at all the places you can, during all the times you can, for as many people as you can, for as long as you can. Then you will be able to worship God within everyone and everything and even walk upon the water."
--Kevin Williams, a modification of John Wesley's quote